| by the evening time, it was obvious you were no longer mine |
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i am so sorry!! i am a horrible person i know. i haven't updated in almost two months. i am really soooo sorry!!!!
so much has happened. so much oh my god. i just don't know how to put it all to words. things are just so...exciting?? more interesting?? but i also feel like i don't have any free amy time anymore which is very sad. that is the main reason why i haven't been able to write in this.
i really am at a loss for words for everything. i will try to update later when i know what to say.
love,
amy
p.s. - happy super belated birthday gabey AND kathee!!!!!
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i am dying to go to some concerts! do any of you wonderful people want to accompany me to some fun shows?
built to spill - september 22nd
juliana hatfield (!!!!) - september 24th
nada surf and ozma - october 1st
shonen knife - october 23rd
only the good people tour during the school year...
and why can't death cab for fucking cutie come to the grog shop or beachland? no. they have to go to columbus. bastards.
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i just realized that i need a new layout very very badly. the end.
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[23 Aug 2003|05:04pm] |
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this week has been so stressful. work. no sleep. school. work again. even less sleep. school. radiohead right after school. the least sleep ever. cutting myself with an exacto-knife in 3-D art. trying to cover up the big dent in sylvia's car. blech.
friday night was fun though. hung out with lindy and bryant at work. so much better than sitting home alone.
i must say.....stephan malkmus was more than great. radiohead was more than amazing.
this post is kind of a gyp....in case anyone actually wanted to read my journal. i'm sorry.
love,
amy
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[20 Aug 2003|03:50pm] |
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today was my first day back at schmool. it was good and bad i guess. i didn't get my schedule because of my asshole father and had to go talk to the principal and all that. i started to get all welled up and cried a little---and i hate crying in public more than anything. but it all worked out. they were just talking to me to let me know what was going on and such and what we could do and when the next court date is and blahblahblah....
so i went to first period with my face all pinkish and looking like i was just sobbing. everyone just kinda stared at me. i sat by annie and jessica and ericka bella and just tried to shrink into existence.
second period is math. puke. i already have a quiz tomorrow. it's easy, but i have to work tonight and all. my teacher's last name is crackora, so everyone calls her crack-whora. she is definitely an evil crack whore.
third period is utterly sucky. don't have a friend in the class. good friend i mean. just acquiantances. most of them think i am weird because i super-decorated my purse (i wrote go sailor, pixies, belle and sebastian, and pavement in puffy paint and it looks really pretty. i put some random pins on there--even though pins can get annoying. it looks very fun though). i also have lunch with 1 person i know so far. whooopeee.
after third period, the juniors had to go to an assembly in the gym. it was just the normal "welcome back. behave, or else...." speech. there is a new guy in our class who i talked to. he is cute and from buffalo new york but he doesn't talk very much. he seemed kinda miserable to be there. i can understand, but he sure was crabby.
the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. i got a bunch of "you look so good" comments because of my physical transformation over the summer. they are surprised because i turned into a girl and lost my baby fat.
i miss summer. i want it back now!
radiohead is tomorrow. super excited. stephan malkmus = hotsex. the only sucky thing is that deena can't go and i have to go to school on friday. AND i haven't had any time to plan a fun concert outfit. that is the best part of going to a big show, dressing up!
well, i have much to do and only 30 minutes to do it. adios.
love,
amy
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[16 Aug 2003|11:56pm] |
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i got my first paycheck!
$222.13 dollars that are actually mine! it's quite a nice feeling. i already owe most of it because i have to pay deena for a concert ticket and my mother for some clothes, but that isn't ruining my paycheck bliss.
school starts this wednesday. i really don't care anymore. all i care about is that i finish my summer reading by tomorrow. i will stay up all night finishing it if i have to.
and most importantly......RADIOHEAD IS ON THURSDAY!!!!! i am so excited. they were my first concert right before freshman year and it was the most amazing and breathtaking shows out of at least 30+ bands i have seen live in the past two years. we have an extra ticket. i am going along with gabe. lindy, my mom, and gabe's mom and we need someone else to go with us. i am excited to see where our seats our. i made sure to get pavilion seats that are no where near the side of the stage so we can actually be able to see thom yorke and ed and colin and all them.
well, i am going to retire to read "the perks of being a wallflower" again for the millionth time, listen to rose melberg + death cab for cutie + juliana hatfield + some random mixtapes, and write in my bon-bon in london journal.
love,
amy
p.s. - kathee, i want to say that i am so sorry that i haven't sent out your tape yet. i have everything ready and i am ready to go to the post office, but work has robbed me of all my free time during the week. i hope to send it out by monday or tuesday. i'm sorry again!
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| you've got a vicious streak for someone so young... |
[12 Aug 2003|02:49pm] |
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school starts in 8 days. kill me now.
i am upset. i haven't been talking to some of my favorite people for almost two weeks. this is really stressing me out. i haven't talked to deena since 311. vivian hasn't emailed me back in a while. dave comes over but i never get to actually hang out with him because of work. this is making my life sucky.
i did finally get the journal that came from heaven. it is so cute and fun to write in. i also got some shaweet pants at old navy and school shoes and school supplies and crap like that.
time to get ready for work, which pisses me off because i can't find the right shirt to wear today. GRRRRR!!!!
love,
amy
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jenny, dustin, and i went to hell, michigan today. mainly to say we've all been to hell.
it was a fun day. a little too much driving, but fun.
school starts in less than two weeks! that is so sad.
i am too weak and tired for an actual post. i am sorry. i'll write one later.
love,
amy
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| i wish i could scream out loud that i love you |
[03 Aug 2003|12:11am] |
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the 311 show was so much damned fun. all the hippies sucked but 311 was awesome and just seeing everyone and having fun and hugging made me so happy. deena and i got hit on by a bunch of creepy guys. i linked arms with her and ran away. deena and i reunited with mike to our old geometry threesome. it all felt so great.
we all had fun trying to get out of the parking garage as well. screaming "whip it out" to every passing male, looking over at cars and all of us putting our fingers in our noses, waving and smiling to everyone, sticking our heads out of dustin's moonroof, listening to music far too loud. we got pulled over by a cop because the headlights weren't on. i got a smiley cookie at eat-in-park. justin left me a not pretending to be aaron (because i needed a pair of boxer shorts) saying "have fun in my underware(really spelled like that). maybe someday i'll get to be in yours =)." dustin, aaron and i went out for breakfast at an italian restaurant, where i ate two pieces of pizza (without the icky cheese).
listening to the pixies obscenely loud at 2 A.M. is a glorious thing...
then two hours after i got home, sylvia, ewa, and andrew luu came and picked me up and we went out. first we went to south park mall, then around looking at movie theaters because we were planning on seeing "bend it like beckham" but ended up going bowling where we formed "the penny gang!!!!" after bowling, we drove around listening to ace of bace and shake your tail feather.
great two days.
like, really great.
love,
amy
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[29 Jul 2003|11:30pm] |
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i've been working for two days and already hate my job!! this is a great start. i've already decided what i am going to spend my first paycheck on:
-margret cho shirt - $20 + shipping
-cute yum pop journal i saw at borders - $8
- 311 ticket - $35
and DUSTIN!!! i am going to 311. can you maybe give me a ride?
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| feeling much much better now |
[26 Jul 2003|05:42pm] |
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first, i would like to thank everyone for leaving such nice comments. they really did improve my mood a lot.
this week has been an odd one. it has kinda been odd in a good way. i know that my poor kitten died, but people have gone out of their way to do fun and nice stuff to keep me distracted.
on the sunday murray died, when we went to masidonia to drop deena off and go to tops, we (me, lindy, dave and deena) all decided to get our cartilage pierced at claire's that day. the only problem was that it was closed...we missed it by five minutes, so we made plans to go on wednesday. monday and tuesday i just bummed around all-depressed-like in my pj's and watched angela's ashes (lindy was trying to cheer me up so she bought me a copy at coconuts for 5 bucks). then wednesday we all went and got our cartiladge pierced. it was good fun. we were in the store for a good 2 hours and the girl who pierced all of us was very nice. she loved dave (and this is weird but all the black women in this world love dave to death and it's hilarious). deena also bought this neclace that was on sale for me, her and dave. it was a best friends forever necklace with three monkeys in the hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil pose. the reason why she got it was because all of the monkeys had three eyes! they are so funny looking. after claire's, minus deena, we went to eat at the courtyard and had a jolly time, where we talked about childhood tv shows and nice things of that nature.
on thursday, we went to borders where i got a juliana hatfield cd and dinner at panera bread. they have this awesome chai latte drink that was delicious. i drank it all while waiting for my sandwich, though. when we got home, we watched thoroughly modern millie (a very cute julie andrews movie about the 20's with fun flapper outfits and singing and dancing) and in the middle of it a got a knock on my door. sylvia, ashley, and andrew luu showed up at my door for a visit! somehow andrew got his license even though he won't turn 16 until december. so we went(i was still in my pajamas by the way)to the park and sat on the big rock by the creek and saw how flooded tinkers creek is because of all the rain we've been having. after being freaked out by seeing random freaky people kayaking after 9 p.m., we went to wal-mart and played with all the toys. it was a good time.
today, my mom and i went to petsmart and got collars and tags for the cats. spencer got a nice black spikey collar. luna got a black collar with fake gems on it. sabbath got a colorful collar with daisies all over. they all have to get used to them, because as of now none of the cats like them.
after petsmart, we went to tops and shopped for our special dinner tonight. i listened to go sailor the whole time on my cd player. it was actually kinda cool, going through the cereal aisle to look at all the fun boxes and seeing boxes of confetti cake and frosting, and just observing people shopping. it was fun for me at least.
i start training for my job on monday. i hope that my boss isn't mad at me because i didn't call to check my schedule this week, even though i start monday. i feel bad because i feel really irresponsible abbout waiting all week to check in for my training schedule. i hope she won't be mad when i call on monday morning to check in. well, i am going to go and attempt to make a tape because it's been a while.
love,
amy
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murray is dead. he was just a 4 1/2 month old baby kitten. i woke up to my mom screaming for help and came downstairs to see her holding murray. his gums were purple. we were both freaking out, then deena(thank god for deena)woke up and was cool and collected and she drove to the emergency vet clinic while my mom breathed for murray. i m pretty sure he died in the car.
we had him for only 3 1/2 months. everyone loved him. he looked like a little raccoon. he wasn't choking on anything to make him die. they said he had a weird blood clot heart failure thing and his lungs were all filled up with fluid by the time we got there. i hope my mom feels better about this all. she says that apart from the week my nana died, this has been the second worst week of her life. i feel numb. i want to throw up.
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[18 Jul 2003|11:41pm] |
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today was a nice day of me being alone. i finished james and the giant peach. i never knew that roald dahl was dead until i read the back of the book. i'm glad a re-read it, because i read it in 2nd grade and wanted to read it again to reminisce, but i discovered that it is kinda pointless. fun but pointless. i also ate 2 pieces of delivery pizza for dinner and watched about 40 minutes of mystic pizza (no cheesy joke intended there).
then vivian called me and we had a nice little hour and a half talk. i really hope we get to meet soon because i feel like we connect .
and here is a little thank you to dave for making me laugh my ass off with your call-wave messages.
this a preview of what dave and his call wave messages are like:
"Grown people! Coming up to me saying "Big lips, ya know. Big nose. Donkey butt". Saying i'm never gonna finish school. You stupid. You ain't going nowhere............donkey butt. *Click*"
that was mocking the mary j. blidge behind the music. we seriously love mary, but donkey butt?? lord.
love,
amy
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| amazon trail waiters are creepy stalkers that all have braces |
[16 Jul 2003|11:06pm] |
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just spent the day with dustin, justin, and lindy. good fucking times i say!
thank for the fun questions april. you seriously rock.
here is how the questions game works:
1 -- Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 -- I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 -- You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 -- You'll include this explanation.
5 -- You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed
1. What are you doing in ten years, ideally?
When I think about it now, I really have no idea where I want my career to be. There are so many things that I want to do. I want to travel, write, learn, make beautiful things. Right now, my favorite career choice is being an author of children's books, that includes both picture and chapter books. I don't know how often I will want to change my profession, but I mainly want to be happy and satisfied with what I'm doing with my life. I also hope that I'll have the ability to change anything that doesn't make me happy. I hope that I will be able to be happy in ten years, at least.
2. If you could trade places with one person for a day, who would you choose?
I think I would want to go back in time and be my ex-best friend's older sister Heather. When I was in fifth grade I thought she was the coolest person alive. She was really into twin peaks, david lynch, anne rice, vampires, the cure, and all that kinda stuff. She used to dye her hair all kinds of crazy colors and didn't talk down to me because of my age, which was one of the reasons that made her so cool. She had the best stories (that i still remember and think of sometimes) and had so many secrets. Her life seemed so interesting. I wanted to know all of her secrets. Either Heather or Rose Melberg, because Rose is so beautiful she is not human.
3. What is the social injustice most worthy of your attention?
I am very against racism and sexism of any kind. I am especially against white power and all the hate that comes from nazism. I can't imagine hating so many people so much for such small differences. I don't know how people can tolerate being so close-minded. I think that people like that fear change and what it does. I just don't understand how people's lives can be devoted to hating. It scares me so much.
4. Who is your favorite relative? Why?
My favorite relative, by far, will always be my grandmother. She died when I was 10. I wish I could have had more time of her. Since my dad left when I was two, she replaced him in the family. I always hated my dad since I was little, but because of her I didn't feel left out because I didn't have a dad. I had a nana instead, which was even better. She was the coolest lady you could ever meet. She had this personality that just pulled people to her. She was so sweet and compassionate and had the best laugh in the world. It was semi-scratchy and it made her shoulders shake really hard. When you heard it, you just wanted to hug her! She also had the best stories about her family, which I still remember to this day. My nana always did fun things with my sister and I. We went to the movies almost every week. The three of us had so many fun adventures, which meant a lot to a little kid. At her funeral, we had so many people from all over tell us how much they loved her. She made friends everywhere she went because she was so hilarious and sweet. I wish she was still here more than anything.
5. What were you like in elementary school? As compared to you are now?
I think in elementary school I desperately wanted to be cool. I wanted to be accepted but still be me, which is hard in elementary school. My school was very small. We only had 30 kids in our class, about 160 overall for Kindergarten-8th, so we all hated each other. I was also kinda fat and this one kid used to make fat jokes about me all the time. Thanks to him, and a couple random mean people, I will have a fat complex for the rest of my life. I was more easily influenced, but said I wasn't to sound cool. I think that now I have learned how to use my voice, even though I am pretty quiet. I've also learned to keep to myself and entertain myself. Basically, I learned not to depend on anyone.
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| i'm back! |
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You are La La Love You!
Which Pixies song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
that quiz was disappointing. hmm =(
but anyways, i'm back online!
and i got a job at the gas station! it's no biggie but it's a good first job. and it is right down the street. today i got all dressed up for my interview and listened to tigermilk while walking home and felt good.
i took a nap and had a bad dream where everything went wrong. in the dream i ate a weird bazooka joe ice cream cake with a big chocolate chip cookie at the bottom and said "i wonder if i have bad karma?" that is fucking weird! i sounded like some weird alternative hippie chick. blagh.
and this just in, almost every girl i know is a slag now. great.
love,
amy
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ok my computer is totally messed up and it sucks. my modem is kinda not working, since i am stuck and the past and still use dial-up, and i can't go online! i have no idea when it will be fixed and all, so here is an update to say that i did not abandon my lj!
love,
amy
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dave is over = good fucking times.
he is playing "smell this", in which he picks random shit up to my cats face and goes "smell this". he does this about a thousand times and i die laughing on the floor.
he also said that my sister's "my melody" book that she has had since a baby is perverted because it says that my melody's shirt is tight and is hard to get over her head. whatta perverted fuck he is.
dave's impression of lindy try to hit on the men who are replacing our windows:
"i know a lot about windows. i have one in my room. one time i crawled up there to pick a flower...."
HAHAHAHAHA dave i love you.
love,
amy
p.s. - i cut my hair super mod short and i love it to pieces. i will post a picture as soon as i find a host site and all that bull.
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today was absolutely gorgeous outside. this morning i could smell the honeysuckle from my kitchen and decided that i would spend almost all day outside. i was laying in the hammock and read "about a boy", while my cat spencer cuddled with me outside, for a good two hours. then dave called, i brought the kittens outside, and when he walked over we sat on the grass and had our usual conversations. we have our own language because we are bro and sis. i have to say it in that retarded way because we were joking about it outside.
then, dave and i came inside with the kitties and hung out for the rest of the night. he went online for an hour. i took a shower and watched a thing on vh1 about the olsen twins. then we ate chicken pesto pizza and watched "when harry met sally". we are having our margret cho day next week hopefully. that just means that we are going to watch "i'm the one that i want" when he is over. woot. can't wait.
a raccoon was just stuck in our garage and growled at me. it freeeked me out.
and i am getting boring and don't feel like writing. so bye y'all. i'm gonna go watch mr. show.
love,
amy
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[20 Jun 2003|04:24pm] |
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blechchschc i am totally bored today. the most exciting thing that happened today was watching murray jump of a chair in my living room. woooo. i am sooooooooooooo borrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeed. you know that feeling when you are bored but you are too bored to get up and change out of your pajamas? and/or shower? yes. that is me. i am a gross hobo lady today. if i don't get out of this boredom slump, i'll become one of those women who go through dumpsters to pick out aluminum cans and glass bottles. haha not really. today is the first day so far in the summer where i have been truly bored. my goal this summer is to only have 5 really super boring days.
the only thing that i really want to do today is go to a harry potter party! all the borders are having midnight parties for the release of the new harry potter book and they are having games and stuff. it sounds like so much fun. i am dying to go. if i had a car i would go by myself!
so here are my plans for the rest of the day to pull myself out of boredom:
-shower and make myself up all pretty for no reason
-watch either: a clockwork orange, the parent trap (the new one that is because i like it better), or amelie
-read 30 pages in "the trumpet of the swan"
-continue ripping down my wall collage and sorting my pictures for my new wall collage
-pet spencer monster
-call amber
-play kingdom hearts
love,
amy
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i stole this from lindy's journal. i only have 22 friends so it won't be that hard to pick people out of the group! and some of the journals on my list don't update very much or not at all. so i will cut it a little short.
Pick ANY ... lj users on your friends list. without revealing their names, say something about (or to) each one of them. never reveal who is what
1. you were the first person to ever add me. i am convinced that you lost your internet connection because you only updated once and i have your screen name but you are never online. i'm sad that we never go to talk because you were so nice and cool.
2. you added me and also stopped updating. you're entries kinda freaked me out. mostly because you are into everything i'm not, but you seemed pretty keen otherwise.
3. i'm pretty sure that you moved to a new username and i completely forgot. you're on my sisters friends list too and i have yet to add you again. i will though. next time i work on my lj. and spiraling rocks!
4. wha happened?? i see you practically everyday and love it. you need to uuuuuse chopsticks.
5. we used to talk a lot last summer, but now we barely talk at all. you worry me because i care about you.
6. i totally love you, but every time i talk to you on aim we never really talk anymore. we are talking on the phone this summer. definitely.
7. we were seperated at birth. we have to go get happy meals together. they have finding nemo toys!! we also have to go back to bitchwood and dress up like hillbillies. scare the rich people for a day.
8. you're my buddy and you're hilarious, but you still don't talk to me that much. you also laughed at me when i fell in the mud. jackhole. just kidding i love you.
9. i miss you like crazy. i know that you'll be in my life forever. that was sappy but it's true!
10. i really like you and your entries. your comments always brighten my day and i would like to talk to you sometime. you are a sweetheart.
11. i hate you go away. just kidding. i have to live with you everday and you're so ugly and you smell. ooh. gotcha there. no really. i love you X infinity + 3. you and i have our own language and i love it. i'm glad that i have a good sister and that we are nothing like our aunts. i know that we will be able to grow old together.
12. i don't really know you and rarely read you're entries.
13. i love your journal so much. you are a very talented lady and you remind me what i love about life. but you also make me feel like a dork because you seem so cool!
14. i really enjoy ready your journal because it is so interesting. i really want to talk to you on aim. and you are also really hot.
15. i miss reading your journal. you were so cool. come back dammit.
16. you are cool and really make me laugh. i want to write you a letter.
and in conclusion, i never really talk to my lj friends. which totally sucks. so everyone, watch out! because soon i will be talking to a lot of you.
love,
amy
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